Sometimes I read an e-mail from an old friend or talk with them on the phone and smile at how their life has changed since we last spoke. Then I wonder if my life has changed that much. I graduated almost a year ago and don't feel much more settled or secure than I did last April. I don't know if I am simply waiting for something to happen, or if I am too scared to take a step into the darkness and take some risks.
I wonder how I will ever know what I am to do, if I am too stubborn to take a chance. I just have a hard time putting it all on the line, if I don't know what the outcome will be. I like playing it safe. I like having two feet on the ground. But maybe it would be good for me to branch out and just take a leap of faith. I just don't know which direction to go... If I knew maybe I wouldn't be so frightened of what's out there.
I don't really know what I'm trying to say, but these are just thoughts that I have had lately. I love my job, but that's pretty much the only thing keeping me in Provo. Is that enough? Should I be somewhere else?? If you know the answers... Please let me know!!
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Sorry AnnMarie, I tried this before to have others tell me if I should go to DC or not. Unfortnatly everyone let me know what I already did so I pass the wisdome onto you - You are the only one that can make that decision.
Good luck though!
Please forgive my constant spelling errors.
well annmarie, think about what you want. Do you want to continue living in provo? are you happy? is there some dream you want to explore? Maybe you want to persue a library education, then you could work in a really cool LIB some day, in a big city, or in a beautiful city. Or become the manager of the Provo LIB. Maybe your like me and have thoughts to go to beauty school some day. follow your dreams girl, and if Provo is too small for them. Look for somewhere else.
Um... I say Arizona. It's warm and there are lots of redheads so you'll fit in and I like you.
i'm right there with ya. sometimes i wonder if i somehow got stuck in an eternal transition period.
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